Tomorrow, I am going to send money to the Dorothy Day Center in downtown St. Paul. It has been on my list for quite some time. Then I will not feel guilty for driving by people asking for money at every stop light in St. Paul.
Tomorrow, I am also going to volunteer at the Union Gospel Mission. I thought it would be interesting to see mission work from a different point of view. Besides, I am a person who asks other people to volunteer, at the very least, I should do what I ask of others.
Tomorrow, I’m going to do a whole spiritual make-over. My reading of scripture could be a little more focused. My prayers have been too self-centered. And, really, I could learn to listen to other people preaching like I know people cling to my words.
The healing for my guilt often rests in the actions I will take tomorrow. Except, the actions are rarely met with follow through. Even when they are I find new guilt to take its place. By now I should have learned, I’m not the best source for my own healing.
Today, Jesus tells me to keep watch. Don’t get caught laying down on the job pushing all my duties off into tomorrow. Do them today, because the master may come and catch me napping tomorrow. But what about today?
I’m forgiven and loved by God, today. My hope is alive, today. An active faith life is not about protection tomorrow, but life today. I find life in writing this reflection. I find joy in being spiritually grounded. The weeping and gnashing of teeth happens when I remove myself spiritually from life. To live spiritually is to fully embrace that we are loved and forgiven, today. (Mt. 24: 42-51)